Favorite Bloggers

I have been inspired recently by two amazing women and their websites. First is Penelope Trunk and her blog The Brazen Careerist. The second is Ree Drummond and her amazing website The Pioneer Woman. Both of the ladies are phenomenal and inspire me in various ways.

I came upon Penelope's sight some time ago when she caused the uproar over the internet twittering about having a miscarriage at work. I had to see for myself what was really said. And there it was in black and white along with a lengthy, well written blog defending her twitter about this event. And no apologizes. I loved that. Here she was, going through this traumatic event, and putting it out there for the world to see.

I admired that she put herself out there, took a brave step, and said, here I am, accept me, accept life. Those too ashamed to see life as it is stopped following her. However, I'm sure she found as many, if not more, followers. She got me at least.

So I have spent plenty of free time looking at her blogs, following her personal tales of raising children, falling in love, work relationships and having Asperger's Syndrome. She is brilliant and worthy.

Penelope introduced me to Ree. She loves her website, as I now do too. I can't wait to check in each day to see what new photos she's posted-awesome and beautiful. What she's cooked up for us to try in our own kitchen and photographed step by step. Or what the family is up to on the ranch that day. And she does all this with the grace and ease of June Cleaver. Maybe that's what's so alluring. She makes it look effortless.

There haven't been 2 people I've been more drawn to recently. They are both fabulous. Penelope even wants Ree's website, which I read here that Penelope wants to be Ree, after, our website is a reflection of our self.

You know, it's okay. We all struggle with who we are and who we want to be. But know that you are very important to many people and that what you offer to the world is invaluable. We all are.

I am beyond irritated this morning. All was going so well. We left fairly on time for school and work. Then I check my available minutes on my cell. WHAT!???!! We've already gone over by 173 minutes!!! FUCK!! Now I have to call and change my plan so that I don't get raped by the overage charges! fuckfuckfuckfuck.

Maybe I should eat a little more. I had half a left over donut that I get yesterday afterwork, so it was already 12+ hours old, so by this morning, it was more than 24 hours unfresh. Don't hate me cause I eat a donut every now and then.

So I get to work and my office manager is here. She called yesterday to say that she would not be here, so I was really looking forward to that. Crap. There goes the weekend.

Hopefully I didn't fully fuck up my test last week.

Inspiration

I watched Obama address Congress this week and a couple of things he said really resonated with me. Of course, these are not the first time I've heard the words, but the first time that they inspired these thoughts for me. He talked about Ted Kennedy and stated that he is always asking what he can do for his country (I could be totally wrong, but I'll give it to Teddy...). He also talked about increasing funding for environmental preservation and it got me to thinking about what I could do. So here's what my thought was:

I've wanted update my house with new paint colors, carpet, furniture, updated kitchen and baths. We also have to replace some of the siding on the outside. So while we're outside, why not add some Solar Panels and make our contribution? I wonder how much solar panels are? What if I buy more, would I be able to lower the price -- you know, buying in volume. So then I thought, what if I petitioned the neighborhood to see who else might be interested in doing something to improve their house and improve the environment at the same time? Wow, I could meet a bunch of new people. And I bet I could practically hire my own crew to do all the installations since our job market sucks right now. And I could support one of our nations rising energy technologies. All of a sudden, I had my own business right here in my little noggin. If I persued it, it could happen. The power of possibility...

Just random thoughts today...

It's midweek, I'm so happy. Today is an easy day at work, the weather plans to be 80+ again today and I have no heavy plans for the weekend besides school. This is the feeling that I like. Last weekend was nuts. I do have some things to get taken care of. Taxes and starting my paper for my class. It's all good.

Oh. So I woke up with an eye infection. How convenient is it that I have an eye appointment today? Yea me! Speculation on how I got the eye infection? Either a sinus infection or sensitivity to purple eye shadow. Not kidding on the purple eye shadow.

I was pondering the other day about how many times a day I change clothes. When I get up. When I get home. When I get ready for bed. That makes for a lot of laundry. You would think I was in middle school.

A long weekend

I can't seem too get to the weekends fast enough, and then they are gone. Tuesday comes and it still feels like Monday, then Thursday hits and Friday is a blur. Saturday morning class, then off to run whatever errands. Sunday sleep late, make breakfast, shop for groceries, catch up on house stuff, work a second job and it all starts over.

This weekend I met with a lovely friend. We meet about once a month for coffee and e-mail when we need each other. We talk over our feelings about relationships, life and work. We give each other advice and then follow up the next time. I admire her a great deal and feel privileged that she is my friend.

What I know is this. I need some me time!! I can't wait for Spring Break! No work, no school. My mornings fly by. Today I've pulled out my text book, run a load of laundry, ironed two pair of pants, more to do later, and almost passed up doing a post. I have lots in my head to get out. I can't afford to pass up doing posts!!

Blue

I've been lingering over thoughts of an old friend. A good friend. More time spent together than can be calculated. But I've been turning from the relationship. Have to turn. It wasn't healthy. I didn't llike who I was turning into with her. Someone I don't want to become. To many negative feelings.

I was okay moving on until she was the topic of a long discussion. I fell into gossip and wanted to know more. Wanted to know what she thought and said. But it just hurts. More than anything why didn't she ask me what happened? Could she really care about us if she never asks? In my heart I know that she would never ask without being prompted. Our mutual friend told her to call me, but instead she sends an email, says she's here for me, misses me.

She feels like a list of transgressions. I don't keep track. I can't get this list out of my head. When I see her, she is the list.

This is so unhealthy, but I almost want to conduct an experiment with this relationship and act as though absolutely nothing is wrong. It's more of a social experiment to see her response. Kind of like throwing out a fishing line....

Just another day....

So, a rather exciting day at work. When I arrived, I was greeted with: We're having fresh air today. The front door is open! Well yes it was, and this is quite unusual. One of our office leaders is highly...sensitive. To everything. Like breathing for example.

But so it was. The door was propped open. But also in front of me was a typical office trash can, filled with dark gray glass. The front door really. In very small pieces. I never really considered that in the correct proportions that a glass door could fill a small trash can a little more than half way. Hmmm. As it turns out, the lawn maintenance person caught a rock just right and it shattered the glass via the weed wacker. The business was already considering changing the logo on the front door as we have recently updated our business profile including an updated website and a new logo. Not only that, a comment was made recently about how dirty the glass was on the door with the evening setting sun. Does he really think I'm going to do windows at work? I don't even do windows at home! So instead of just taking off the previous lettering, we secretly had the glass shattered so that we could get a shiny clean new one and just have new lettering put on with our logo.

Also, like I was greeted, the rest of the office staff was similarly greeted, and our customers as well. For about half the day.

Studying this week has been essentially non-existent. I sat down this evening, the eleventh hour, to finish reading the chapter for this week. Nothing stuck. I read the key parts twice, trying really to absorb the info, knowing really that the likelihood of having a class lecture on the information is pretty slim. Seriously, I'm on my own here. And I don't know a soul in the class. I've been Chatty Cathy with a lady that sits in front of me. Sadly, she wants to talk while others in the class are sharing with the teacher. I can't hear two conversations at once. I simply don't have this skill. I do want to chat with her though because she took this class for a couple weeks last semester, so I want to know what she knows. But she was with a different teacher.

I happened onto a website that lets you comment on your professors. I had heard about it before, but forgot to look it up. So I took an opportunity. I looked up my teacher. He has 3 comments. All of them talked about what a great teacher he is! Wow! In my experience with the college, he is my least favorite. I have never had a class where the information that you are required to know is not presented to you in some fashion. I go to this class and we talk about community crime events for 2 1/2 hours. I digress. My disillusionment ran deep this week.

I have the last shift of the required community service this weekend. Valentines Day. Nothing says I love you like supporting a loved one through their community service, on cupids special day. Whatever.

Goals: still working on posting more often. I really like to post in the morning, I'm too tired when I get home and my brain is more fresh. Speaks for itself.....